Self Conscious of the moving pieces, a place of strange surroundings, knowing as I grow and change, my flaws will too. There's an odd perfection in understanding our flaws only hold as much power as we give them. When we obsess over the things we cannot change, the best things we have, become just a mediocre piece to add to our crumbling self image....I have this one tooth that broke a few years back, I hate smiling or laughing because of it, it makes me sad, it makes me self aware, it embarrasses me, but the worst thing it does? It steals my joy.Whenever my husband makes me laugh or smile (which is often) I find myself turning away or hiding my face so my broken tooth doesn't stand out, but that means my smile and my laughter won't either.March is my birth month and I thought it a fitting time to share an image that represents a sort of rebirth for me, as I've decided a lopsided smile is no reason to loose my belly laughs.
I am I longboarding, book loving, word obsessed, detail chaser. I am fueled by coffee, red bull and good hearty belly laughs. On any given day, I look like I was thrown from my closet, in whatever fits. My hair and makeup are an unprepared disaster, forged by that day's urgency. We are often barefoot and dirt covered and the neighbors know me best for misplacing one child as I frantically chase down the other four. I learned to shoot film when I was eighteen and I fell in love with my first SLR, I love to shoot the details and I live for moody and dramatic light. As I continue to learn, my children find new ways to avoid posing, pushing me to learn, and to love self portraiture. Though life with little ones is exhausting and overwhelming, I wouldn�t trade it if I could. I love these moments, they are hard, they are heartbreaking, they are story-worthy, they are my everything.